July 31st - The day we thought would never come..

Welcome to what had to be the hardest day of my life. I was not prepared in any way, shape, or form for what was about to happen to me.

The sad thing is, it didn't hit me when I said goodbye, it didn't hit me when I was driving for three hours back to Cedar City to start training for soccer again, it hit me when I took a nap in my little twin bed in my apartment and I woke up and thought... What? I can't call Gabe? He's not going to text me within the hour? I don't get to hug the love of my life for 2 WHOLE YEARS?
That had to be the hardest three minutes of my life, because right after that my roommate, who is also my teammate, was telling me we had to go to our team dinner. I had to suck it up and go attempt to socialize with girls I barely knew for two hours when all I really wanted to do was curl up in a ball and cry. 
I have prayed more since he left then I have ever prayed before, I just hope my boy is ok.